ACHE OF THE AGE

2-3 days ago, I celebrated my new job by going to buy some clothes for work and glasses at H&M. I exactly know that the bright light show the real skin on the mirror but I rare though about my age when I felt I was in the young group while my face looks like a boy. I changed my theory after I saw my skin on H&M mirror 's fitting room. I fuckin' needed to scream when I saw my imperfect hair shape on my face while my skin on the face and back suck.

I had never had the skin like this since I was 15, I used to have the problem about pimple due to homo. I rare noticed the effect after Songkarn, hung out, slept late and drank too much were going to damage my 28th skin. It imagines me to the age 30 that what is holly shit going on. However, I bough 2 shirts and 1 suit there.

I am going to blame the climate in Thailand which  made my skin feeling shit with a lot of sweat and I maintain in 60-61 kg ( That is the best maintain in my life after 17 which my weight used to go down to 51 kg. ) I feel shit with the bad skin but my proposal is negative. I bough the skin lotion but I haven't opened it from the pack. It hanged on the shopping back almost 3 weeks already.

Why I damage my skin? I don't know. I just know that my recover energy is going to different from the younger age. I can get fat easier soon after I lost my 6 packs and become almost the normal body now. Work out Work out

LIVE & LEARN TO LOVE URSELF

I surprise every times when I sit and notice myself that how  I change about mature, idea and everything ( including age and line ;-( ) . I passed the child tween and teenager and transform to be mature  with  100 times  for heart broken , cheated, challenged and passion. It makes me believe that nobody dies for " LOVE " when God created 3,000 million people to born to love you. The powerful word is  " Live and Learn to Love yourself before you love each others ".
 
That's true , we are a man ,so it's normal to get devastate when we meet someone in our life and feel " Yah, he/she is perfect for me."  Experience tough me that we might think by ourselves. Sometimes, we can fit only the first time when we meet. Finally, we gonna say " No" or stop the relation. If we don't do first, the opposite will start to do it.

Experience tough me to love myself more than going down to fight with bitches/ prostitutes who live and learn to love for  surviving.  We have never tough to do that, it's not our job. I must not surprise when I lost with those bitches and whores. I got the well-education enough to take care myself and recover quickly than you guys know. Finally, I just anticipate that my lover will be back although it's only 1%.

I can change for fit with my honey but I am honest that I mustn't change all for you. I can't be stupid to sit and smile. I'm not innocent enough to do it. If you need a guy who can't fight  with you, no idea , just go for him, It's not me. I can look pass or close one eye for something but don't think, you can do it. Sorry, I love myself.

I'm sorry, I can't wait you over 1 week. It's enough for me. If you don't have the signal or something want me to wait you. Please, stop hurt me. My heart and my body got pain enough and don't wanna absorb it anymore. My pool is smaller when I am older. I'm not in the young group anymore. I don't have more choice like 1o years ago.

 If you go, I just say goodbye, see ya. I can't cry more for love. It's enough for me. I learn to love myself and don't wanna wait my tear for you.









  

How Hard To Write Your Life Story in the Young Age

After I stated on my facebook that I would re-write my story, again. One comment is very interesting  that " I'm old enough to to tell  about my life? " . That question is very good idea, it makes me keep writing my blog although I don't write / don't update everyday/ nobody interests to read it.  Who know next 10 years . when I return to read my blog, I might laugh or cry about my  story or maybe see the change of the word as the language or emotional symbol. :-)

I think, If I'm 10 years older, I will not have  time or no idea to write something like this. It's not negative as I have the financial crisis. I feel,  I will no idea to write about it or  I might forget what's happened when i was young. Young age should be the most interesting period because we are Asian, our young age will be the end after we are 30 years old ( Some people might feel 25-26 yr very old ) , it means we  have the young age shorter than European /American countries which people think, 30 is still young.  In the other case, I may have some part of my life more mature than people in the same age.  If you think, Sex, Drug , Roll n' Roll was the normal life for my young age . No, No, No...I used to be very very quiet and feared a stranger before. So, my perception was different from other people in the same or almost same age for sure.

One more thing . I  am a bit lucky which I was born in the period when the world was changing and US dollar only 21-22 baht/dollar and Australian dollar only 8-9 baht/dollar. I use to touch the first Nintendo, played the first gameboy in the world and enjoy with classy music in 80's + 90's . My parents watched Iraq news the whole day in early 90's. See the peak economy of Japan and Asia and bubble economy of Asia due to Tom Yum Kung Disease, got insulted by a drunk journalist about my generation when I was 9 years old.  Is it enough to write everything to be 1 story/ topic?  :-)

Furby , Furby and Furby

      In this week, everybody in Thailand got the news about Furby buyer got cheated to  buy a cheap Furby. If you don't know what is that. Furby is kind of  a digital pet which have the behave and can react to you when you touch, feed and talk with it. It has  its own language ( it's called Furbiee Language, you can check the meaning from Furby Dictionary ). If you talk with it, it can learn your language ( Only in English ) and communicate with you. Moreover, You can connect it with the Iphone or Android app for dictionary, give more yummy food and etc.. The cool thing, the eyes are LED while my TV only Plasma.. LOL

       Furby Effect causes  Thai celeb  take it to Intragram. That's the best PRs for the product due to it booms in feel day.  The buyer in Thailand find the way to get the  great color in the cheaper price as we know Thai company must be charge 120% for the imported product. When anyone sells it cheaper and  have more color. It's allowed and goof enough for risk. So, they lose for 4-6 million baht now.


      When I saw Furby, it makes me think about  digital robotic pet that  nowadays,  the life style of Asian people change, the most condos and apartments don't allow the pet. When no good friend at home. Furby is one of the best choice coz it  reacts. However, Furby fever used to be in Thailand when I was in Jr. high school before.  I have never had it one and feel it's not my type but it's fine if anyone gives it to me. Hehhehehe...